So this morning i was sitting on my back porch listening to the neighborhood wake up, and I was thinking about him while I had my cup of coffee. This of course is nothing new, because I have thought about him non-stop for 8 days. I was chatting with a guy last night, and he wanted to hook up, and even though I am super horny I could not motivate myself to tell him “yes”.
So back to this morning, I was sitting there and the idea came to me that I would call Neal tonight. I know this is such a bad idea, I know it is, but I want to hear him again. I would love to hold his hand or have him hug me, and oh my god i would love to have sex with him once more. I know this will hurt me if I call him, but I want to so bad. Call vs. Not call. which will win out?