Today was my third test, it went terribly as usual. Don’t fret though all of you faithful readers. I am ok with failing, because I have decided not to transfer the course back to Pitt. I am going to use it to prep me for fall. I will sit with my director tomorrow, like I do every Tuesday where she will tell me to get a tutor, and I will explain to her that is not an option.

I felt sick today. I mixture from a poor lunch and a horrendous sunburn from gay Pride in San Francisco. It was really fun and amazing, you can really see who is in charge of that city. The girls bought me a Pope on a Rope to make me feel better. They are really nice and love the people I have met here, I wish I was just getting the language.

I feel as though this Spring I realized there was not a career for me in academia. It is kind of like that movie Taste of Cherries he really he did not want to end his life but he had to go through the motions of destroying it. I similarly realized long ago that I have no place in higher education, but continued on with this course to prove to my self that this was not my goal in life.