I have decided I hate my organization. Rainbow is my current bane of existence. I am just pained to really be in it right now. NO, I should not say that. It is just a few people. I would like to throw Bekezela out right now, she has been overly moody and it is my office I should not have to put up with shit like that. I should not have to feel uncomfortable where I do work. I actually cancelled the steering committee for next week, there is just no way I could bear going through it.
Sean is my second problem. I wish I have never agreed to go on spring break with him. I am just not really into talking to him. I used to have SO much respect for him, but I look at what his pointless conversations have got us. We have lost every battle, and it seems like the benefits will never be provided. I want to give up. I get annoyed with his awkwardness and complete lack of any social maneuverings.
I just cannot find sanctuary in my life right now. ugh ….. I am exhausted.